Out with the old, in with the new.
I’ve been spending all of my “downtime” sorting, selling, donating, and throwing away. We had a day recently where Trey and I rearranged our living room because it was feeling too “meh”. Granted, this new furniture composition has opened my eyes to so many things that our home is missing, which will be an ongoing project. BUT, I’m just feeling tired of the NOW.
I’m tired of spending far too long looking at my closet, trying to decide what to wear, knowing that I’ll end up wearing one of the button-downs that I wear every other day. I’m tired of digging through drawers of socks to find one of the ones that won’t show over my sneakers. I’m tired of looking around and thinking, “Gosh, we have a lot of stuff.”
I want to be able to move from here, with less than half of what we came with. I want to be real with myself about what I love, what I want, and how I treat my body. I want to stop eating luscious, pillowy HERO Donuts, just because my husband is addicted to them. I want to cool it on the red meats a bit. I want to add more color to my diet, and more activity to my day. I’m not being too hard on myself with all of this, though. Grief knocked all momentum out of me, life happened, work drained me, and then it was so.damn.cold. BUT. Sunny days are like a healing balm for me, and the temperature is warming up just enough so that breathing in deeply doesn’t feel like pins sticking my lungs.
So, I’m ready now. With this change, and this step forward, I’ll be evolving this blog. I’m tired of looking at it, frustrated that I can never make it look like I want it to. SO, I’m enlisting the talent of a friend, switching to a new platform, and we are going to work to transition this space into one that I’m happy with, and proud of.